in the lurking darkness
into the deserted arms of the night
into the lonely labyrinth
you left me... by myself
i waited for you
to walk the alley of trials
to walk the lane of iniquity
to walk... with me.
you chose to stay away
as i called out to the emptiness
as i called out to the dim night
the only sign of you... was my own echo
i wait no more
befriend the sinister night
befriend the grim shadows
and i choose... to walk along.
.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
THE SO-CALLED HAPPY ENDING
and i thought,
that another bump just passed
we were intact together
or so i thought.
i accepted the past,
our meaningless togetherness
our strange ways of holding on
my acceptance, my bad.
i chose to forgive
your every flirtatious revealing
your every careless gesture
forgiving you.
i believed in an end
as happy as you promised
as mutual as you hoped
but you ended my belief.
i always felt the end
will arrive when it should
and not while seeking it
but you chose, to seek.
you came to me
with love, you claimed.
i gave myself
but a torn me, you left behind.
so you wanted a happy ending.
how happy was the ending?
certainly, happy for you.
cuz it was always about you.
maybe it was never a 'we'
maybe it was just an 'i'
maybe it was all just a lie.
.
that another bump just passed
we were intact together
or so i thought.
i accepted the past,
our meaningless togetherness
our strange ways of holding on
my acceptance, my bad.
i chose to forgive
your every flirtatious revealing
your every careless gesture
forgiving you.
i believed in an end
as happy as you promised
as mutual as you hoped
but you ended my belief.
i always felt the end
will arrive when it should
and not while seeking it
but you chose, to seek.
you came to me
with love, you claimed.
i gave myself
but a torn me, you left behind.
so you wanted a happy ending.
how happy was the ending?
certainly, happy for you.
cuz it was always about you.
maybe it was never a 'we'
maybe it was just an 'i'
maybe it was all just a lie.
.
THE SO-CALLED HAPPY ENDING
and i thought,
that another bump just passed
we were intact together
or so i thought.
i accepted the past,
our meaningless togetherness
our strange ways of holding on
my acceptance, my bad.
i chose to forgive
your every flirtatious revealing
your every careless gesture
forgiving you.
i believed in an end
as happy as you promised
as mutual as you hoped
but you ended my belief.
i always felt the end
will arrive when it should
and not while seeking it
but you chose, to seek.
you came to me
with love, you claimed.
i gave myself
but a torn me, you left behind.
so you wanted a happy ending.
how happy was the ending?
certainly, happy for you.
cuz it was always about you.
maybe it was never a 'we'
maybe it was just an 'i'
maybe it was all just a lie.
.
that another bump just passed
we were intact together
or so i thought.
i accepted the past,
our meaningless togetherness
our strange ways of holding on
my acceptance, my bad.
i chose to forgive
your every flirtatious revealing
your every careless gesture
forgiving you.
i believed in an end
as happy as you promised
as mutual as you hoped
but you ended my belief.
i always felt the end
will arrive when it should
and not while seeking it
but you chose, to seek.
you came to me
with love, you claimed.
i gave myself
but a torn me, you left behind.
so you wanted a happy ending.
how happy was the ending?
certainly, happy for you.
cuz it was always about you.
maybe it was never a 'we'
maybe it was just an 'i'
maybe it was all just a lie.
.
PRE PLANNED LOVE
and you came.
with a thought in mind. a plot in mind.
i took you in.
with my arms wide open.
but little did i know.
that it was not love that you held me with.
that it was not care you felt me with.
but it was a pre planned motive.
a pre planned love.
a love that demanded my love.
a love that suited your life.
a life around yourself. noone else
with a thought in mind. a plot in mind.
i took you in.
with my arms wide open.
but little did i know.
that it was not love that you held me with.
that it was not care you felt me with.
but it was a pre planned motive.
a pre planned love.
a love that demanded my love.
a love that suited your life.
a life around yourself. noone else
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
it's when i say...
its when i say i don't care
that i realise
how much of me is you.
its when i say forget it
that i realise
how all my egos are suppressed when it comes to you.
its when i say i hate you
that i realise
how to hate someone you must love them too much.
its when i say its over
that i realise
how impossible its going to be to put an end to us.
its when i say miss you
that i realise
how time seems static without you.
its when i say take care
that i realise
how much i wannna take care of you.
its when i say i love you
that i realise
how insufficient words are.
but its when i dont say.... that you know what i mean better.
that i realise
how much of me is you.
its when i say forget it
that i realise
how all my egos are suppressed when it comes to you.
its when i say i hate you
that i realise
how to hate someone you must love them too much.
its when i say its over
that i realise
how impossible its going to be to put an end to us.
its when i say miss you
that i realise
how time seems static without you.
its when i say take care
that i realise
how much i wannna take care of you.
its when i say i love you
that i realise
how insufficient words are.
but its when i dont say.... that you know what i mean better.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
religion - deciphering the deal
The chambers dictionary defines ‘religion’ as “a strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny”. Interestingly, ‘human destiny’ and ‘supernatural powers’ are still concepts that remain highly personal and inexplicable. Though the definition given by the dictionary seems a fitting one,’ how much of it is what religion actually is? Or rather has become?’ is a thought that none spare a time to.
Till today, religion is a territory that man has not been able to explain, understand completely. Yet astonishingly, populations are divided, wars are fought, countries are born and businesses flourish solely with religion as a reason. This complex appendage of a person’s mental being shapes his routine, his nature, his social circle.
On the path of trying to decipher what religion is, one skips and tumbles while trying to patch the discrepancy between what exactly religion is and what religion is understood to be. Interpretations have evolved over the years. For the good or bad? That’s for one’s personal understanding.
So going by the common belief that religion is believing in the ‘super natural power’ to determine our destiny, completely discards the possibility of man making his destiny solely through his efforts. Weren’t religion and the concept of god brought merely to help people console themselves in times of trouble? So how does one seek consolation in the same god during times of trouble, where the trouble itself is caused due to the conflicts of religion?
History mortifies itself by revealing various riots that have taken place over the years, with religion as the main source of conflict. People have killed each other merely on the difference in religion. Thus, religion just makes one view another human being superficially. The real person with feelings, with mental opinions etc., is just overlooked. One singles himself out from a group of people merely on their religious beliefs and fails to even attempt to connect in any other way. The very fact that countries have been divided on the basis of religion rather than just geographic divisions itself reveals the intense controlling power of religion.
Rituals are an integral part of religion. It has taken the belief in supernatural powers a little away from religion and brought in the concept of being ‘religiously right’. Now, the emphasis is all about praying ‘the right way’, making the ‘right’ sacrifices, saying the ‘right’ prayers, giving the ‘right’ offerings and so on and so forth. So who decides what is ‘right’? Well, looking at the current scenario, the ‘right’ of everything is decided by the people who have the religious power in hand and also, who can reap an ‘understandable’ economic gain from it. Also, the various businesses that have flourished to support the religious practices have a significant place in the decision making. The very form of decision making is not direct. It spreads in the form of rumours and stories that have a quality of ‘confession from god’s friend’. Who has been with god to express the facts on his likings and disliking is a mystery that is yet to be deciphered. Various festivals that are merely celebrations of common belief, have now become more of a status issue. The grandeur of religious practices seems to be anointed to the depth in a particular faith. Thus, now it seems that the more stringent the rituals re performed, the more effective the prayer is going to be. So for those who have limited resources in meeting particular standards of flamboyance, fulfilling their prayers seems to be another prayer.
On a personal note, religion seems a very individual thought. It is more about how people wish to connect with a figure they can trust sub consciously. It’s that figure that can move them in times of trouble and to whom they willingly give up their credit on any effort. Whichever form it may be in, whichever name it has how many ever figures they can trust, it still remains a highly personal feeling. It may be influenced by the surrounding and the people they trust but however after a period of understanding life, one easily chooses the religion that he can connect with. How one wishes to connect with god is determined by his comfort level. So if there are such high levels of personal involvement in the faith one has in god, then how can the faith of many be clubbed into one stream and name it a particular religion? It is quite difficult to understand how rituals, passed on for years, help one in establishing a comfort level with the supernatural power. Then, it becomes more of a concept of the individual conditioning himself to be comfortable with a particular pattern of praying rather than what his comfort levels demand.
Finally, accepting the complex nature of religion and faith like in the past, man continues to pray, believe and have faith in the super natural in spite of its evolution throughout the years.
Till today, religion is a territory that man has not been able to explain, understand completely. Yet astonishingly, populations are divided, wars are fought, countries are born and businesses flourish solely with religion as a reason. This complex appendage of a person’s mental being shapes his routine, his nature, his social circle.
On the path of trying to decipher what religion is, one skips and tumbles while trying to patch the discrepancy between what exactly religion is and what religion is understood to be. Interpretations have evolved over the years. For the good or bad? That’s for one’s personal understanding.
So going by the common belief that religion is believing in the ‘super natural power’ to determine our destiny, completely discards the possibility of man making his destiny solely through his efforts. Weren’t religion and the concept of god brought merely to help people console themselves in times of trouble? So how does one seek consolation in the same god during times of trouble, where the trouble itself is caused due to the conflicts of religion?
History mortifies itself by revealing various riots that have taken place over the years, with religion as the main source of conflict. People have killed each other merely on the difference in religion. Thus, religion just makes one view another human being superficially. The real person with feelings, with mental opinions etc., is just overlooked. One singles himself out from a group of people merely on their religious beliefs and fails to even attempt to connect in any other way. The very fact that countries have been divided on the basis of religion rather than just geographic divisions itself reveals the intense controlling power of religion.
Rituals are an integral part of religion. It has taken the belief in supernatural powers a little away from religion and brought in the concept of being ‘religiously right’. Now, the emphasis is all about praying ‘the right way’, making the ‘right’ sacrifices, saying the ‘right’ prayers, giving the ‘right’ offerings and so on and so forth. So who decides what is ‘right’? Well, looking at the current scenario, the ‘right’ of everything is decided by the people who have the religious power in hand and also, who can reap an ‘understandable’ economic gain from it. Also, the various businesses that have flourished to support the religious practices have a significant place in the decision making. The very form of decision making is not direct. It spreads in the form of rumours and stories that have a quality of ‘confession from god’s friend’. Who has been with god to express the facts on his likings and disliking is a mystery that is yet to be deciphered. Various festivals that are merely celebrations of common belief, have now become more of a status issue. The grandeur of religious practices seems to be anointed to the depth in a particular faith. Thus, now it seems that the more stringent the rituals re performed, the more effective the prayer is going to be. So for those who have limited resources in meeting particular standards of flamboyance, fulfilling their prayers seems to be another prayer.
On a personal note, religion seems a very individual thought. It is more about how people wish to connect with a figure they can trust sub consciously. It’s that figure that can move them in times of trouble and to whom they willingly give up their credit on any effort. Whichever form it may be in, whichever name it has how many ever figures they can trust, it still remains a highly personal feeling. It may be influenced by the surrounding and the people they trust but however after a period of understanding life, one easily chooses the religion that he can connect with. How one wishes to connect with god is determined by his comfort level. So if there are such high levels of personal involvement in the faith one has in god, then how can the faith of many be clubbed into one stream and name it a particular religion? It is quite difficult to understand how rituals, passed on for years, help one in establishing a comfort level with the supernatural power. Then, it becomes more of a concept of the individual conditioning himself to be comfortable with a particular pattern of praying rather than what his comfort levels demand.
Finally, accepting the complex nature of religion and faith like in the past, man continues to pray, believe and have faith in the super natural in spite of its evolution throughout the years.
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