till that day of regret...

you came into my life from nowhere. i invited you with trust... with care. i accepted you with love and believed in our so called life together.

you began to occupy a major part of my life... i began to feel that your absence would leave me incomplete.i wanted you.... i needed you.

we spent days together...that ran into memorable months. we invested in memories that would help me... or maybe destroy completely.

you said yesterday-
there will be a day when we wont have a tomorrow.
there will be a day when we know its the end.
there will be a day where we would have no future.

i listened to all of that...
my words drowned in tears...
or maybe i had nothing left to say.

i however wonder,
our future will remain..
only if you want it to exist.
only if you want it to happen.
maybe you dint.

so today...
i am still with you...
i am stepping into this bond with you...
a bond with a marked end.

the reasons are unknown...
maybe i'm not strong enough to give up...
maybe i'm not weak enough to go back...

whatever it is,
I KNOW I AM GOING TO REGRET THIS ONE DAY.

so here i am till that day of regret...
still in love with you- completely!

when i smile........

i smile... a lot.
everyone smiles too.
But sadly most of the times...people feel, its out of happiness.
i say- certainly not!

i smile... when i look at you, and i just cannot believe you are saying those things to me!
i smile... when i know you are lying, but you still won't say the truth!
i smile... when u do those really mean things, even though you know it hurts me!
i smile... when i want to yell at what you just did, but cant!
i smile... when i think of the fact that some things, some people never change!

i smile... when i look at your efforts to stop my tears!
i smile... when u don't mean what you are saying, but you still say it for me!

i smile... when i see you smile!

FATHER DEAR...

Father dear your unconditional love,
Is just so miraculously true.
There are no known bounds,
Of how much I treasure you.

Father dear I often think,
How ideal and impeccable you are.
And whenever I need you,
You are never too far.

Father dear I look up,
To your commendable success.
You also try to pamper me,
But never in excess.

Father dear I occasionally wish,
To advance your intellectual wit.
It is quite impossible,
But you taught me to never quit!

Father dear I admire,
Your every aspect of action.
I hope you know that my love,
Will not even part for a fraction!

Father dear I aspire,
To be someone just like you.
So considerate, clear & complete,
Forever so true.

Father dear you are one of a kind...
The best anyone can find!

THE LAST WISH...

I await my end,
End due to these...
Totally unworthy earthlings...
Who are in a spree to kill trees!

Don’t you remember...?
The times when I,
Brought the rains down...
Unable to see the earth dry.

Happy for your crops,
You reaped benefits off your field.
Some of you ran towards me
Your forever rain-shield!

I gladly gave in...
As I felt I was part of you...
Part of the residents of the earth.
Hell! It seems unlikely true!

Don’t you remember?
The times when my fruits
Filled your starving stomachs
You never thanked me for those loots!

For all of this
That I am worth...
Just let me and my tribe,
Inhabit the earth!

a blind man to his love....

I behold my unentitled joy
Only in you,
As we together tread
In this world so true.

Reality strikes when
You’re not there,
Paradise awakes when
You return with care.

I see the world
Through your eyes,
As I try to decipher
Where the beauty lies.

You help me manoeuvre
Through the world so dense,
Never disabled
With my inoperative lens.

My debility
I overlook,
With your name
On every page of my book.

Do I thank you
for being so true,
or do I thank the lord
for sending you?

As I try to
Unpuzzle this query,
My doubtful answer
Doesn’t really vary.

You are my strength
My only hope,
Thanks for always being
My securing rope!

i am the woman...

I am the mother
Of humanity,
Banishing the borders and breeding unity.

I am the daughter
Of the tenderly aged,
Consolidating the cowardly
I free the caged.

I am the friend
Of the ones in need.
Heating for the hungry
I handsomely feed.

I am the woman
The world is my family
Though oppressed & discriminated
I’ll still give unconditionally.

and you said nothing...

you left in silence...while i wept my soul...

cried till my eyes were dry...

till my heart was ripped... till my body felt numb...

till my memories were torn...

i wanted to stop you...

but i couldn't... all i did was cry...

you didn't say a word...

you didn't say goodbye...

the times we've spent...

are now just memories...

memories that i have etched...in my soul forever...

like a tattoo on my skin...

but now it stings...

i needed an answer...

but i had no questions...

you didn't say a word...

you didn't say good bye...

i feel so incomplete...

not due to your absence...

but because...

when you left...

you took a part of me with you...

i demand its return...right now...

it is that part of me...

that could trust someone...

that could care for someone...

that could love someone...

but now i am incapable of this...

you walked away with this...

walked away in silence...

you didn't say a word...

you didn't say goodbye...

and you said nothing...

rann - the movie

Today, to avoid the grueling task of sitting through another day at college with the increasingly tiring classes i decided to go watch a movie. Couples retreat? The blind side? Rann? Off course being a media student rann was the movie i chose.

Starting off with the most obvious beginning of the different types of news channels but ending on a very thoughtful note, rann comes across as a movie with a difference. In this current age where Bollywood seems to be exploring every disease on the medical journals and making a tear evoking movie out of them, rann seems to intentionally break the existing conventions.

Following the sarkar, sarkar raj band wagon Amitabh Bacchan has yet again successfully portrayed a very strong character. Riteish Deshmukh has used this movie to discover a different side of his talent. His acting skills have been polished over the previous movies and finally reached a slight shine and smooth texture in this movie. Paresh Rawal, as usual has kept up his character successfully transforming from a rib tickling comedian to a rage evoking politician. Gul Panag and others have (though playing a very small role) managed to glue the story together into a no-popcorn, no-blinking issue.

The story, at a very nail biting pace unfurls its twists and turns to portray media as a pure business issue. Amidst the corporate warfare of the business of news presenting, the movie also presents another face of media. The face that is driven by pure passion of the profession and the

sentiment of social service.

Overall, a smart and well made film.

a year older.... but yet so young!

perhaps this was the longest wait... the longest wait to turn a year older... and maybe the last wait...
the very thought of finally being an adult always got me counting my days left for my birthday...
i sailed through the entire year in anticipation...waiting for my adult years to begin...
today...7 days after turning into an adult...
i feel as young as ever... a still find those silliest things so cute... i still take the time out of my overburdened days to do the most meaningless of the tasks... i still expect the most special care from everyone else...
today...i sit to think... what is so adult about me now? what is it that has made me old enough... i still fail to understand... or maybe i refrain from accepting the fact...a fact so unknown to me...a fact that i wait to decipher...
today...i still feel the same... i trust as easily as before... i care as much as before... i expect as much as before...i understand only as much as before...
today...i want to settle with this conclusion...a conclusion for the time being... maybe there is so much a person has...a person feels...a person wants... that may just not change... inspite of the years that pass by... inspite of the experiences that wake us up... inspite of the rocks thrown at us...
maybe because all this... is part of a person... a person who remains the same... the possessor of the mind...that stays so young... behind the body that grows...
so here i am... just as i was...just i am...and just as i always will be... this is how i will be...even after the wrinkles play peek-a-boo to display my mortal years...
i will still remain the same me...
the me who loves everything so meaningless....
the me who even enjoys nothingness...

dear friend...

dear friend i need u...
for now and more.
to love, to care..
and to trust for sure.

when i cried...
u dried my tears.
when i was scared...
u chased away my fears.

when i was hurt...
u took my side.
lended me a shoulder...
so i could confide.

when i was happy...
my joy u shared.
so i felt special...
i felt cared.

today i thank...
u for those days.
i hope we stay friends...
forever and for always!!!