till that day of regret...

you came into my life from nowhere. i invited you with trust... with care. i accepted you with love and believed in our so called life together.

you began to occupy a major part of my life... i began to feel that your absence would leave me incomplete.i wanted you.... i needed you.

we spent days together...that ran into memorable months. we invested in memories that would help me... or maybe destroy completely.

you said yesterday-
there will be a day when we wont have a tomorrow.
there will be a day when we know its the end.
there will be a day where we would have no future.

i listened to all of that...
my words drowned in tears...
or maybe i had nothing left to say.

i however wonder,
our future will remain..
only if you want it to exist.
only if you want it to happen.
maybe you dint.

so today...
i am still with you...
i am stepping into this bond with you...
a bond with a marked end.

the reasons are unknown...
maybe i'm not strong enough to give up...
maybe i'm not weak enough to go back...

whatever it is,
I KNOW I AM GOING TO REGRET THIS ONE DAY.

so here i am till that day of regret...
still in love with you- completely!

when i smile........

i smile... a lot.
everyone smiles too.
But sadly most of the times...people feel, its out of happiness.
i say- certainly not!

i smile... when i look at you, and i just cannot believe you are saying those things to me!
i smile... when i know you are lying, but you still won't say the truth!
i smile... when u do those really mean things, even though you know it hurts me!
i smile... when i want to yell at what you just did, but cant!
i smile... when i think of the fact that some things, some people never change!

i smile... when i look at your efforts to stop my tears!
i smile... when u don't mean what you are saying, but you still say it for me!

i smile... when i see you smile!